Thanksgiving

I'm not feeling very thankful this year. I'm really struggling to keep an upbeat attitude, so I'm going to post about what I am most thankful for.

I am so thankful for my husband and my daughter. Steve is always so kind and caring. He never says unkind words to me and he always treats me like a queen. This past week I've been doing a lot of blubbering and he simply lets me cry on his shoulder...then he provides me with chocolate and makes sure all the house work is done.

Stefanie makes me smile everyday. Her hugs always cheer me up. I feel truly blessed to have been entrusted to be her mother.

Better

Wow! What a difference a day makes. I am feeling much more at peace today. I go in for my D & C tomorrow. I am nervous, but I'm sure all will go well. While I am very sad to lose this little life that has been growing in me, I know that all will be fine. I have a beautiful family and feel so blessed to know that Heavenly Father trusted me with even one of His precious children to call my own in this life. Being a mother is one of the biggest gifts and blessings I've ever had and I'll enjoy every minute of it.

It helps that today was a great day of teaching. Some days I come home and wonder WHY DID I EVER WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE WITH TEENAGERS!? Today was not one of those days. Today I remembered what a miracle it is that I get to have over 200 new "kids" every year. Everything good that I want to have happen in my classroom, seemed to happen today. I left work feeling very satisfied and blessed to be a teacher of 14-15 year olds. I know it might sound crazy to you, but for me it is wonderful!

I really do appreciate all of your prayers in my behalf. I am confident that those prayers are what have helped me have a feeling of peace in my heart. I feel truly blessed to have so many people that care about me.

Not a good week...but it can only get better.

I wasn't going to post about this, but writing is therapeutic at times, I can use the prayers, so I figured why not (wow that was a run-on sentence...sorry). So I'm pregnant, BUT the fetus died in utero. Unfortunately, my body is refusing to naturally abort the pregnancy. That means I get to go in for a D & C this Thursday afternoon. I'm not looking forward to it, but I'm sure I'll survive.

Steve still hasn't been able to find a job. When people talk about a rough economy, they aren't kidding. Thankfully his health is much better. This is a good thing since he has no medical insurance, due to losing his job.

My stress level is maxed out. I've cried more than once at work and I'm not much of cry-er. Anyway, I sure hope our turn for trials are over for a bit. I am just about a basket case. So far, I am managing to stay out of the looney bin (although my family may disagree). I am struggling with my faith. I know that Heavenly Father is aware of me and loves me, but I am really tired of the answer to my prayers being NO and NOT RIGHT NOW.

Please pray that Steve will find a job. Please pray that I will have the faith and strength to endure. I am grateful that my family is a happy family. We have a lot of love in our home and smile and laugh each day. I don't want you to think we are miserable little complainers, but we could use your prayers.

Where have I been?

Okay, it's been a long time since I posted. Life's been hectic; what more can I say.

School has started. Only 4 1/2 more weeks and we are done with the first trimester. Speaking of trimesters...this is the first year our district has used them. It's been a big change! I have great students, but HUGE classes. Let me tell you, when you've got 36 teenagers in one class with only 35 seats, it gets crazy! I am teaching English as well as a new class called Freshmen Success (which is realy a bit of an oxymoron). I am still convinced that I picked the best career for me. I love my job, I'm always happy to go to work and happy when I leave at the end of the day.

Two weeks into school, Steve had his gall bladder removed. It went well and he feels like a new man. Unfortunately, he had to drop out of this session of school because he missed so much class time due to being sick. He'll start back up in school on the 20th of this month. He also had to quit his job. His employer was giving him severe reprecussions from missing so much time due to illness AND refused to put him back on his original schedule so that he could go to school. Basically, he had to choose between school and work. We chose school. Thankfully, he had a job with insurance while he was sick. Now he is insuranceless, but can probably get something through the school. Teachers don't make a lot, but my check should get us by until he finds something new.

We are feeling extremely blessed in our home. Even when things seem to go wrong, they happen at exactly the time when we can handle it. I love reading all your blogs and posts on Facebook. It is so fun to keep in touch. I love you all!

Link

Okay, I forgot to add the link. Here it is:

www.miraclefortegan.blogspot.com

Plea for help

Some friends of ours have a little girl who is battling an extremely rare form of cancer. Please check out their blog and click on the flyer link. Thanks!

The doctor found something wrong...

So, we have a diagnosis for Steve. It's called gastroparesis. It's treatable. We're relieved. For more info click the link. http://www.webmd.com/digestive-disorders/digestive-disorders-gastroparesis